The first time that I can remember getting a migraine is when I was in kindergarten. It was after catechism class - no wonder I have such bad thoughts about catholicism. I remember coming into the living room and laying straight on the ground without any pillows or blankets. The pain was throbbing on one side, so I placed the throbbing side to the ground with the desperate hopes that the pain would seep through my skin and out of my head. I also couldnt stand to lay with the pain on top cause it seemed to make the unbearable pain disseminate to my entire head.
I had a migraine today. Almost 22 years later. Somedays I just cannot stand it anymore - why me? Why have I been suffering with these for 22 years? Today's migraine caused me to be a little late for work. Which is fine, but people ask why I was not in. So I tell them, "I had a migraine this morning." To which I often get a response of..."oh I get bad headaches." Bad headaches? BAD HEADACHES?? For some reason I take personal offense to people trying to compare their "bad headaches" to my mini strokes...especially on days like today. It reminds me of the movie 28 Days with Sandra Bullock in which Steve Buscemi says: (I'm paraphrasing) "IF anyone could possibly know what it feels like to be sober, they wouldnt dare think of asking me to try and stay sober." For me, if anyone could possibly have an inkling of what it feels like to have a migraine they wouldnt dare patronize me by saying they get bad headaches.
I have gotten an MRI and an Echocardiogram, so hopefully I will have some answers soon and take care of this issues after suffering for 22 years.
Friday, October 05, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
I'm Georgia Bound
I think that my adult life can officially begin. I have graduated graduate school and earned my Master of Arts degree in Higher Education Administration. I also have recently accepted a position as the Assistant Director of Intramural and Club Sports at Valdosta State University. So, ready or not I am Georgia bound. My first official day is July 2nd
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Sick
I got home from work tonight at about 11pm after leaving this morning at about 9am. What about the dog you ask? Oh he was in his cage but my roommate goes home for lunch and then gets home from work for the day at about 5pm. Well today he didnt go home either. When I got home he had gotten home about a hour earlier. In that time he found that my dog had shit in his cage, had apparently eaten the shit in his cage, and the vomited the shit that he had eaten in his cage all over the kitchen floor...he had only thrown a few paper towels over the vomit. So I had to dive right in a clean it out. First try I felt like I was going to dry heave and I had to retreat. Second try I was dry heaving so badly that I had to retreat. Third time I had to retreat because there was actual vomit in my mouth. Fourth time, it was clean. But, I still had to tackle the messy dog outside in the pouring rain and the shit filled cage that was also outside in the pouring rain.
If having a child is any indication of having a dog, you can count me out. I love this damn dog more than anything, but I think I might know what my father is getting for his birthday this year :)
I'm off to Denton, Texas this weekend for the Region IV Lead-On. Should be interesting...hope i get some news on a job.
Oh yeah and some other exciting news...my sister and brother in law are having a BERTHA. I'm not sure that she has announced this on her blog, so I hope she is not upset with me. Well she is the only person that reads my blog, so I hope YOU are not mad at me :)
If having a child is any indication of having a dog, you can count me out. I love this damn dog more than anything, but I think I might know what my father is getting for his birthday this year :)
I'm off to Denton, Texas this weekend for the Region IV Lead-On. Should be interesting...hope i get some news on a job.
Oh yeah and some other exciting news...my sister and brother in law are having a BERTHA. I'm not sure that she has announced this on her blog, so I hope she is not upset with me. Well she is the only person that reads my blog, so I hope YOU are not mad at me :)
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Productive Pierce
So I have been fairly active in continuing my goals for '07 :)
1. I'm writing now aren't I?
2. I still have not had ANY soda. This is crazy, but I must admit that I am feeling much better about myself :)
3. Since December 26th I have had TWO drinks...not to shabby. The real test will be next weekend when I am in Indiana at a conference with some old drinkin buddies!
4. Relationships...well that is a tricky one until I move out of Cape Girardeau. I have been corresponding with an "EX" lately. He wasnt exactly an ex-boyfriend, but he sure is an ex-something. Thats going alright...and I have been hanging out with my friend Stephanie lately doing other things that taking shots :)
5. I have only ate out twice since January 1st. The first time that I ate out I had half a turkey wrap and some soup and the second time I had a california chicken salad (that was AMAZING)! In the two weeks that I have been eating healthy I have lost 7.5 pounds. I weigh in every monday...i'll keep you updated ;) Also I have been running a lot more. I can now run a 5K (3.1 miles) without stopping and my fastest time in 28 minutes and 38 seconds. My new Nike+ Running system tracks all of this.
That is all for now. I have been working on my resume to start applying for jobs. It makes me very nervous to think about it. I hope I can get to a fun area that is also close to family or friends!
1. I'm writing now aren't I?
2. I still have not had ANY soda. This is crazy, but I must admit that I am feeling much better about myself :)
3. Since December 26th I have had TWO drinks...not to shabby. The real test will be next weekend when I am in Indiana at a conference with some old drinkin buddies!
4. Relationships...well that is a tricky one until I move out of Cape Girardeau. I have been corresponding with an "EX" lately. He wasnt exactly an ex-boyfriend, but he sure is an ex-something. Thats going alright...and I have been hanging out with my friend Stephanie lately doing other things that taking shots :)
5. I have only ate out twice since January 1st. The first time that I ate out I had half a turkey wrap and some soup and the second time I had a california chicken salad (that was AMAZING)! In the two weeks that I have been eating healthy I have lost 7.5 pounds. I weigh in every monday...i'll keep you updated ;) Also I have been running a lot more. I can now run a 5K (3.1 miles) without stopping and my fastest time in 28 minutes and 38 seconds. My new Nike+ Running system tracks all of this.
That is all for now. I have been working on my resume to start applying for jobs. It makes me very nervous to think about it. I hope I can get to a fun area that is also close to family or friends!
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Happy New Year
The coming of a new year is an event that causes a national epidemic of reflection. We all seem to ask ourselves what exactly can we do this year that we didnt do last year that can put us back on the right path. I'm not sure why the new year is the best time to do this, but I suppose it is a better time than never. Usually I have been morally opposed to resolutions. I feel as though they are often set too high and thus unattainable setting up a nation bound for depression. But with my pending graduation in May I thought it would be beneficial to initiate some life changes. This year...why this year I have many resolutions for the year 2007. Some resolutions are big some are small...some are internal some are external, and not all of them I am willing to share with anyone. So, the following is a list of my resolutions for 2007.
1. To start it off, I vow to write in my blog more honestly, more often, and more accurately and document my progress on my other goals :) I have this "journal" but rarely write in it, and I rarely accurately describe what is going on in my life :) I think honesty and self-disclosure are big goals for 2007!
2. NO SODA. For my family...NO POP. I gained about 15 pounds this semester (figure it out...that is about 1 pound a week) and I blame it all on the amount of soda I was drinking. The last soda that I had was on December 27th...That is right I have not had a soda in 10 days.
3. Drink alcohol less...notice how I did not say NO alcohol. I'm not trying to be lame here, but I am 26 and I think that I can do other things than get wasted with a bunch of 21 year olds. The last alcoholic beverage that I drank was on December 26th.
4. Number three leads me to number four - Build mature relationships. According to Chickerings 7 vectors of College Student Development I should be able build mature relationships by now :) I have always prided myself on not being "that girl," but I would be lying to myself if I wasnt looking for someone to spend more than a few nights with. I'm not saying a husband, but just someone to be there for me other than my dog and my family :) Other than a romantic relationship with a man/men, having friends that possess life goals that are congruent to mine. I want friends that understand me and share the same interests as I do...not someone to gossip with after ten shots in between of make out sessions...you know?
5. Eat healthy. I have subscribed to the biggestloserclub.com for recipes and I have been cooking every meal at home for almost a week now. I workout regularly but I eat like shit...so here is my effort to maintain my weight and not wake up when I am (wow I almost said 30...and I am almost 30)... lets say 40 and suddenly I weigh 300 pounds. Less alcohol, no soda and eating healthy should prevent that. Its time for some life changes. Thanks to the season 3 of biggest loser that I watched new years day in one 12 hour sitting.
All of these I have began working on already, with the exception of number 4. I guess right now I am sitting in limbo. I have spent one and a half years here in Cape Girardeau and I can't help but look at this experience as one that has already been lost. So I suppose I am waiting until I make my new destination in May to work on putting myself out there and conquer number 4. Dont get me wrong, I have enjoyed myself VERY much here BUT and this is a big BUT I cant wait to move on. I will be sad when I leave, but unlike Carrie Bradshaw and New York...Cape Girardeau is NOT one of two great loves in my lifetime.
1. To start it off, I vow to write in my blog more honestly, more often, and more accurately and document my progress on my other goals :) I have this "journal" but rarely write in it, and I rarely accurately describe what is going on in my life :) I think honesty and self-disclosure are big goals for 2007!
2. NO SODA. For my family...NO POP. I gained about 15 pounds this semester (figure it out...that is about 1 pound a week) and I blame it all on the amount of soda I was drinking. The last soda that I had was on December 27th...That is right I have not had a soda in 10 days.
3. Drink alcohol less...notice how I did not say NO alcohol. I'm not trying to be lame here, but I am 26 and I think that I can do other things than get wasted with a bunch of 21 year olds. The last alcoholic beverage that I drank was on December 26th.
4. Number three leads me to number four - Build mature relationships. According to Chickerings 7 vectors of College Student Development I should be able build mature relationships by now :) I have always prided myself on not being "that girl," but I would be lying to myself if I wasnt looking for someone to spend more than a few nights with. I'm not saying a husband, but just someone to be there for me other than my dog and my family :) Other than a romantic relationship with a man/men, having friends that possess life goals that are congruent to mine. I want friends that understand me and share the same interests as I do...not someone to gossip with after ten shots in between of make out sessions...you know?
5. Eat healthy. I have subscribed to the biggestloserclub.com for recipes and I have been cooking every meal at home for almost a week now. I workout regularly but I eat like shit...so here is my effort to maintain my weight and not wake up when I am (wow I almost said 30...and I am almost 30)... lets say 40 and suddenly I weigh 300 pounds. Less alcohol, no soda and eating healthy should prevent that. Its time for some life changes. Thanks to the season 3 of biggest loser that I watched new years day in one 12 hour sitting.
All of these I have began working on already, with the exception of number 4. I guess right now I am sitting in limbo. I have spent one and a half years here in Cape Girardeau and I can't help but look at this experience as one that has already been lost. So I suppose I am waiting until I make my new destination in May to work on putting myself out there and conquer number 4. Dont get me wrong, I have enjoyed myself VERY much here BUT and this is a big BUT I cant wait to move on. I will be sad when I leave, but unlike Carrie Bradshaw and New York...Cape Girardeau is NOT one of two great loves in my lifetime.
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